Emo

Do you ever have things or events happening in your life that give you multiple feelings and thoughts at once? 

You don't know how to feel or which one(s) to feel? 

On certain days you feel some things, and on certain days you feel others? And sometimes they are so drastically different that you think you are going mental? 

Insane from joy, or insane from anxiety? Or both?

Fear, happiness, butterflies, doubt, confidence, excitement, worry, sillyness, elation, tingles, tears, laughter, heartache, hope?

I never used to think it was possible to feel all of these things at once. And now I know that it is! And it's pretty darn cool once you accept it as part of who you are.

You feel moved, but aren't sure by what. 

You feel touched, but aren't sure by who.

You want, but you don't know what you want.

You want to say something, but you don't know the words.

You want to reach out, but aren't sure to who or what.

You feel heavy, but don't have a care in the world.

You feel at peace, but your mind is in conflict.

You want to connect, but feel so disconnected in ways.

You are stumped, and can't figure out why.

You are not your normal, predictable self.

You got knocked off your balance beam of life.

And you are perfectly okay with all of this...

It's a wonderful, beautiful, zany mystery. Thank God for it. It is like He is doing a paint-by-numbers in your heart. Each little compartment of your heart is a different number and God is the only one that has the watercolors and brush. So you don't quite know what the final picture will turn out to be, but it gets more beautiful with each new color He adds.

It makes every day new and grand. It makes you look forward to what will be there in your heart and mind the next day. And although it is hard sometimes, it's SO worth feeling this way.